i guess this would be my last post..
time does heal wounds, but the scar there is irremovable.. just hope that nothing would trigger the scar and expose the flesh again..
time to throw away the past and move on
@8:18:00 AM
taken frm my 1st post:
If you think that remembering things is difficult, try forgetting them..
Some things can never be erased from your mind no matter what you do..
"Time heals all wounds"
Is it true?
If so, how long?
I'm about to find out..
looks like some scars can never heal.. or may take a longer time to heal..
now i know what kind of person i am:
always trying to move forward, but keeps on looking at the back.. tsk tsk.. vry dangerous.. high possibility of falling down..
need to change this stupid habit..
"The slashers' era has ended once i picked up my Sakabatou.."
- Himura Kenshin
@10:01:00 AM
ok.. thx to yoong wend that i found out the actual name of that song: Love Me, by Collin Raye..
and some minor factual changes to my previous post.. firstly, it's "BIATHLON", not "biathalon".. Christel Fung Shufen (Singaporean) finished the 1.5km swim with a timing of 17:16, 1st swim timing for Women's Open, 2nd swim timing overall.. 1st overall swim timing was set by Lim Zhi Cong (Singaporean), 16:19.. Overall 1st placing was Bucky Schafer (American) with a timing of 0:56:55.. Victoria Campbell (British) finished the biathlon 1st for the Women's Open with a timing of 1:05:57.. OMG.. are they human??
the past week was a very exhausting week.. dives, dives and more dives..
had breakfast with my cabin-mates this morning at Ya-Kun at Northpoint after book-out.. my 1st time eating at Ya-Kun.. the kaya toast and sugar butter toast are vry nice.. although i can make lower quality toasts for myself at home for free.. but hey, that's business..
going to Taiwan next month
other than these, nothing much happened.. leading quite a boring life.. and I'm quite bored of it.. zzz
thought of the day:
The world is full of deceit and lies.. Every human being live to survive in this world.. Every individual live only for themselves.. They help others either because they can gain some benefits or they hope to gain some benefits out of it.. They hide the truth from others because they are scared that once the truth is out, they will incur losses.. Everyone is wearing a mask, hiding their true selves.. The world is fake.. True colours will be seen only when people are being pushed to the limits..
true or not, it's up to you to decide and believe..
fyi, most of these are juz randomly thought out by me while writing these posts.. only some that i specified are extracted or quoted from other people.. so please notify me if u wanna use these 'quotes' or wadeva u call them..
@4:42:00 PM
last wk was a happening wk..
had 2 tests and a retest.. dived alot using new equipments.. played Time Crisis 2, 3 and 4 during liberty.. and most happening of all, the stupid Singapore Biathalon preparations..
juz 2 full days.. thursday, and a stupid saturday (1/2 a wkend gone).. and got my whole body sunburnt in the process.. pain pain pain.. but it was quite worth it.. i got shocked when a 15-yr-old girl and her younger sister owned the whole biathalon (1.5km swim, 10km run).. AWESOME!! i dunno their timings though.. but, at least i got to know that gals rock too in these kind of physical activities..
and i heard a song on the radio: "If you get there before I do", by Collin Raye..
now it keeps on running thru my head.. romantic, but sad song.. worth listening.. it's the only english song that i like so far..
here's the chorus:
"if you get there before i do
don't give up on me
i'll meet you when my chores are through
i don't know how long i'll be
but i'm not gonna let you down
darling wait and see
and between now and then
until i see you again
i'll be lovin' you
love me"
@9:23:00 PM
as usual, i've been playing non-stop on my computer.. and no time to look thru my uni brochures..
and i have not yet applied to any uni this yr..
crap..
how i wish i haf more determination to go into uni.. esp when given my crappy results..
@6:48:00 PM
the past week had been a relatively tough week.. lots of things to study in camp, coz of the stupid Special Skill Diving Course.. 2 tests.. forced to write reflections every night by our training officer.. thinking whether to retake 'A' levels or not.. learning to play mahjong.. haha
o well.. i guess i've made up my mind to retake 'A's.. although a lil pricey, but i believe dat i haf juz enuf willpower to make it.. any extra help is vry much appreciated..
today, i had this weird feeling.. i felt that my life is juz not worthwhile.. no objectives, no goals, no meaning.. full of uncertainties which i do not like at all.. juz felt like running away from everything..
then, an edited version of an extract from the anime Vandread came to me:
'Worries, doubts, jealousy'; I was only thinking about myself, that's why I never cared about what the people around me were thinking. It didn't matter to me. But now I know, they're on my mind. Now when I think of them, I could never think about running away. I really feel that I want to be stronger for all of them. I won't run away. Even if I'm like this, there are people out there that believe in me. So it's for them, I will continue to fight on. And this is the proof that I'm alive!
ok, this sounds a lil too extreme.. but i can say that most of this is true.. at least this made me felt a lil stronger.. up to u peeps out there to interpret this extract..
if u want more of these kind of 'life lessons', i suggest u watch this anime.. Vandread
@11:32:00 PM
juz like the one stroke that will convert the word "suffering" into "happiness",
I'm looking for the one person who will convert my suffering into happiness..
inspiration from the movie Helen the Baby Fox
@11:47:00 PM
Xiang Xin
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<coming soon..>
-get into a university
-complete NS
-get a girlfriend, most prob haf to wait till uni.. :(
-get Otsuka Ai's albums
-get SweetS '5 Elements' album
-learn to play mahjong
-that's all for now..
PUFFEE (Sze Bim)
PinkyVan (Vanessa)
GenSephyr (cousin Gerald)
Wing Lun
Alexander
Wee Koon
Wayne Lee
some blog that i like.. nice pix
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